Let's Talk About Weight, Baby...

Wednesday, July 31, 2013

     I've struggled with weight since my mid-twenties...I used to be able to eat a whole medium pizza at a time, and be fine... Right before I got pregnant with my son, I weighed in at 140 lbs at the fertility clinic (a whole other story) , yet at that point, I was ok with my body and my weight ( I am 5'2", so that was a lot of weight for me...) I was a size 6 and wore it nicely. I gained a lot of weight when I was pregnant (I was up to 164 lbs...I blame my gestational diabetes...and the fact that I was carrying around an almost 10 lb baby!), and was back down to 140  6 weeks post partum.
     After my son was born, I was on top of the world...I was instantly in love with HIM and in love with being a mom... I suffered from post partum anxiety, which was terrible, but I lived through it.
My marriage started to downward spiral not long after...I don't know exactly what went wrong, just that I wasn't happy anymore.  I was at my heaviest at that point; I don't even know how much...Sadly, we split up. He moved out, and I stayed in the house with N (my son, about 17 months old at the time...). The weight started falling off me almost instantly. I got down to a gross 106 lbs, and I looked deathly. At the time I thought I looked fine, but looking back now, I think I looked sick. That was in 2008. Fast forward to 2012 and I am back up to 139 lbs :( . That's the sucky part about getting comfortable in a relationship...with me anyway. I get too comfy and let my guard down, and I stop caring about what I look like :( .
      I was on my to becoming very sad with my life , everything in it except for my precious boy! He kept me going :)  It was a conversation on the phone that I had with my mom that changed everything around for me. She told me flat out I was getting fat. And with my diabetes history, that I was asking for it. She was brutally honest with me, saying that my appearance was probably the reason people weren't accepting my available daycare spot (I was interviewing for one vacant spot at the time). Yep, she was brutal. But I knew deep down inside she was RIGHT. So, that got my ball rolling. Lots of tears...I worked on it for a while just simply through eating (what I thought was ) better, and lost a bit. But then the holidays came, and a little crept  back on. It wasn't until April of 2013 that I really got a grip, started eating really clean (spinach and avocado, lots of fruit and veggies and almost no carbs), and doing exercise! I pushed 5 kids in a huge buggy around the neighbourhood every morning, and then took a powerwalk every evening after N went to bed. ...Fast forward to today, and I am 110 lbs, with nice muscle.. (ie I don't look sick!) I feel great! I have tonnes of energy, and it's so nice to fit into a size 1 again! Sometimes I fall off the wagon, and then feel like crap...but all in all, I totally plan to live this way for the rest of my life. I am glad my mom gave me the push I needed, and was probably looking for.

 

This was me June 2012 at N's Kindergarten grad

                                                        

                                                     And this is me last week...July 2013
                                                             30 lbs lighter (I love selfies!)

                                                        
                                               Here's a body shot, just to get the full effect
                                      Lots of veggies, fruit and water really do a body good!

I am a Bachelor/Bachelorette Addict....

    
Tuesday, July 30, 2013

     I've watched every season of the Bachelor/Bachelorette...except the first one. I turned it on one night, and thought , 'this is the dumbest thing ever...a hundred girls and one guy'...It wasn't until the second season was on (Aaron's season) that I really started to become obsessed... I think the fact that Aaron was smoking hot made me interested...(apparently Alex in the first season didn't do it for me...:s) Anyways, Mondays became Bachelor/Bachelorette night for me...
Fast forward to last night, watching Desiree try to deal with the 'problem' of having to 'choose' her guy. I wanted Zak to get the final rose...I thought he was brutal the first night, running around shirtless, but he grew on me. Unfortunately Des didn't feel the same way, and he was sent packing 2 weeks ago. :(  Back to last night-- Des really seemed to be into Drew, but I have to admit, I was getting a little embarrassed seeing the two of them in what seemed like a perma lip lock! eesh! I was almost ready to go to bed because the show was getting a little boring..ALMOST...and then Brooks decided he was going to leave, that he doesn't love her enough, blah blah blah..Well Des professed L-O-V-E for Brooks, basically telling him that he was going to be the last one standing....which got me thinking about her and Drew and their date/make out session that happened just before the commercial...I'm sure Des knows what she's doing, and I love her, don't get me wrong, but I am pretty sure Drew thinks he is THE one and only...that boy's gonna have one broken heart at the end if he isn't the one down on one knee :( 
     I used to be excellent at determining the one that the Bachelor/Bachelorette would choose in the end...the last few seasons, I've chosen the one opposite to the one they choose, and I get pretty heartbroken about it! I soo wanted Sean to choose Lindsay, Aly to choose Chris ( I even tried to find a way to set Chris up with my then single sister! I get way too involved....) and Des to choose Zak.
I guess we'll find out next week who she ends up choosing...Best of luck to her and whomever she ends up with! She's such a sweetheart...
    And then I will have to wait with baited breath until January, when Juan Pablo will make his Bachelor debut...*swoon*

Testing....testing...Is this thing on?

July 29, 2013

Hey all!
I am new to the blog world...I've only ever followed one blog religiously, and that was just about a month ago when I found Mama Laughlin on pinterest...and it led me to her blog. Well right off the bat, I loved her! She's hilarious, and honest! ...and I feel I can relate to her on a bunch of levels...she's a mom, and she is striving to make herself better through exercise and better eating...which is what I have struggled with...my weight...(more about that another day...)
Anyways, after reading her blog posts, I thought, 'hey, I wanna do this! I wanna write an online diary, to share with others...! (hopefully!)
So let me start by introducing myself... I am 33...I am a mom of a 6 year old boy...and I do home child care (going on 13 years...) I'm not really sure what else to say about myself...It's hard to describe yourself! I've always been a pretty happy person in general, but I've taken on a new motto...We're here for a good time...not a long time. And this is so true...a girl I went to school with/worked with at the Pizza Hut after school in high school and friended on facebook died a few years ago of a vicious form of cancer... and she chose THAT song to be played at the end of her funeral...I didn't attend the funeral, but her song choice affected me, and has made me want to see the world through different eyes...although it's hard with the things that have happened lately (train wrecks in Spain and Quebec, marathon bombings...) I am damn well gonna try!
Anyways, (I say that a lot...) nap time is just about over, soooo...so is break time!